Ian
June 26, 2011 was the worst day of my life. That day I gave birth to the most gorgeous baby I have ever seen. He was born dead. I would …continue
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Angry At
The world Not knowing that I needed to protect my baby boy until he was already out of my reach The flowers on my kitchen table, which aren’t good enough, …continue
Things to Know When Your Friend Loses a Baby
Studies show that complicated grief may arise after miscarriage, stillbirth or neonatal death. This can be generally described as grief or depression that lasts for an extended period of time …continue
5 Ways to Endure the Pain of Losing Your Baby
In December 2005, I gave birth to a stillborn son. While in labor, I experienced a grief so transcendent, it almost lifted me up, after which waves of despair seemed …continue
Hello and Goodbye
Baby’s Name: Layla Malcolm Kocsis Date of Birth: 11/11/13 Original Due Date: 12/12/13 Weeks Pregnant: 35+4 Baby’s Weight: 6lb 9oz Baby’s Length: 19 in Photos: https://seatosm.exposure.so/hello-and-goodbye On Monday, November 11th, I …continue
Stillborn and Still Proud
I sit there, in the passenger seat of the Chevy Equinox, with my husband sitting next to me. I am holding and gazing at the little brass box that is …continue
Ex Utero: A Postpartum Notebook
Ex Utero: A Postpartum Notebook by Cheryl Dumesnil Week One Miscarriage lays an odd kind of grief on the table. My body, once buzzing with hormones that announced an undeniable …continue
Our Infertility / Adoption / IVF Journey
I met my husband in a chat room June 2005 and we met in person July 2005. Around that time, my acne broke out and I started gaining weight. My …continue
5 Ways to Help Those Remembering Baby Loss During the Holidays
The holidays are upon us and this presents challenges for families coping with baby loss. For the bereaved, the overt and unremitting emphasis on family and celebration may be both …continue
Holding Stillborn Babies
Medical professionals should help mothers to hold their stillborn babies. Recent research shows that mothers who hold their stillborn babies report that the experience had overall positive long-term effects on …continue
Telling Stories of Loss on National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day
October 15 is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. How do we remember? Why do we forget? Let us not silence the voices of loss. When my second child …continue
Reconceiving New Beginnings
Back to school. It’s the season of hope and new beginnings. One of the things that I’ve been hearing a lot this time of year is about the parallel of …continue
Bereavement Retreats: Healing and Perinatal Loss
In last month’s post, I looked at bereavement groups. This month, I am focusing on bereavement retreats that specialize in pregnancy and neonatal loss. Exploring these interventions individually is important …continue
Reconceiving Trying Again
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Maya Bella Ingram
I was pregnant with our third child, our first daughter (who we ended up naming Maya) from July 2013 with an expected due date of April 19th, 2014. On Monday …continue
Norah Jean
No I did not lose “my daughter” but I watched my daughter lose her daughter. And it was the cruelest, hardest thing I have ever experienced. These are the words …continue
What Do They Call Grieving Mothers?
My first pregnancy was not what I would call bliss. I suffered from constant nausea – the kind that lands you up in hospital – and had to take chemo …continue
My Girl
After three miscarriages, my husband and I decided to try one more time. In March 2009, I took a pregnancy test and gave it to my husband, Mykol, to look …continue
Kane
To me, Kane was more than just an unborn baby within me. He was more than just my son. He was a lifetime of late night talks, “some days” and …continue
Awakening
So there I was. Sobbing in the shower. Asking God to please do “something”. I was a typical twenty nine year old wife and mother of two with a million …continue
My Story
My story, the story, the end. It was joyous when I found out. We had talked about trying for a baby in a year just the week before. A week …continue