June 26, 2011 was the worst day of my life.  That day I gave birth to the most gorgeous baby I have ever seen.  He was born dead.  I would …continue

Angry At

The world Not knowing that I needed to protect my baby boy until he was already out of my reach The flowers on my kitchen table, which aren’t good enough, …continue

Hello and Goodbye

Baby’s Name: Layla Malcolm Kocsis Date of Birth: 11/11/13 Original Due Date: 12/12/13 Weeks Pregnant: 35+4 Baby’s Weight: 6lb 9oz Baby’s Length: 19 in Photos: https://seatosm.exposure.so/hello-and-goodbye On Monday, November 11th, I …continue

Stillborn and Still Proud

I sit there, in the passenger seat of the Chevy Equinox, with my husband sitting next to me.  I am holding and gazing at the little brass box that is …continue

Ex Utero: A Postpartum Notebook

Ex Utero: A Postpartum Notebook by Cheryl Dumesnil Week One Miscarriage lays an odd kind of grief on the table. My body, once buzzing with hormones that announced an undeniable …continue

Holding Stillborn Babies

Medical professionals should help mothers to hold their stillborn babies. Recent research shows that mothers who hold their stillborn babies report that the experience had overall positive long-term effects on …continue

Reconceiving New Beginnings

Back to school. It’s the season of hope and new beginnings. One of the things that I’ve been hearing a lot this time of year is about the parallel of …continue

Reconceiving Trying Again

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Maya Bella Ingram

I was pregnant with our third child, our first daughter (who we ended up naming Maya) from July 2013 with an expected due date of April 19th, 2014. On Monday …continue

Norah Jean

No I did not lose “my daughter” but I watched my daughter lose her daughter. And it was the cruelest, hardest thing I have ever experienced. These are the words …continue

My Girl

After three miscarriages, my husband and I decided to try one more time. In March 2009, I took a pregnancy test and gave it to my husband, Mykol, to look …continue


To me, Kane was more than just an unborn baby within me. He was more than just my son. He was a lifetime of late night talks, “some days” and …continue


So there I was. Sobbing in the shower. Asking God to please do “something”.  I was a typical twenty nine year old wife and mother of two with a million …continue

My Story

My story, the story, the end.  It was joyous when I found out. We had talked about trying for a baby in a year just the week before. A week …continue