It’s been 11 days since we parted ways,
I’ll never understand why you’re there
and Here am I.
Stuck on this shit hole place, alone….
I don’t understand why….
Why did you have to die.
I hate the world today,
I’ll hate the world tomorrow…
Everyday that I remember your sweet face,
Your tiny fingers and toes,
I’ll hate the world that day.
I will not be there to teach you to look both ways
as you cross the streets in heaven.
I won’t be there to teach you how to read,
Or how to ride your bike across the clouds.
I won’t be able to hear your first words,
Or ever hear your sweet laugh, or see your sweet smile.
So forgive me, If I hate the world today
Because you are there,
and Here am I.
My days have no ends,
and my nights have no dreams….
Only pain….In my heart, my soul.
Knowing I have to wait a lifetime to hold you again,
So forgive me baby, If I hate the world today,
Because you are there,
and Here am I,
I am a mother that lost her child, before she even got to hear his first cry.